Apr/100
Bumbling Along The Spiritual Path
I went in for the final surgery and yes it was very scary but I have to be frank about this part. I believe everything works out for the absolute best not because I’m a lunatic but because when I was busy minoring in psychology I came across too much evidence which says that optimists live longer happier lives. It is sometimes very hard to do but I have been practicing for a long time. Another thing I consciously did was telling myself that the surgeons have all the power now and I can do nothing. I let go. Now I could relax and enjoy it.
As I was coming too in the post cutting stupor blurred by amazing drugging an air of confusion began to own me. Melinda was holding me and that was very comfortable but her face held another truth… “cadaver bone…” I could only grab a little bit at a time “…come back in a month…” so I guess the leg bone hadn’t fused properly. They were able to cut my face up very well and remove a bunch the excess leg material and metal bits however they will have to go in again adding bone from a corpse. Great. Fabulous. I’ll have to wait an additional 7-8 months for the surgery I was supposed to have yesterday or was it the day before? The drugs are wearing off and the pain is coming on and I’ve been in the bathtub close to four hours now.
A friend came to the house and is helping Melinda and I am fucking hurting ow. Shit this hurts but I am glad that it isn’t worse. My brother was shot in the head by a cop at close range he was a little younger than I am now. I can’t believe this is happening sometimes and sometimes I find out this is for the people around me as much as my experience. I turn on the jets in the tub and the noise takes the pain away only for a minute.
Thanks for watching the store you are incredibly amazing fabulous women and I dearly love you. The HELD store is for the critters and it is important that it holds certain ethical standards. My god this pain. I need the jets and bubbles. I wash my face every few minutes sorry. Please join the FB stuff and volunteer at the shop No FBI allowed.
Apr/100
Thanks & Finally
Yesterday on the way to my pain psychiatrist we got the call from my surgeon’s office. Alright the surgeons are convinced enough that insurance is convinced enough that this is a medical & not dental problem. Then in my required psychiatrist’s office I totally melted. I haven’t cried like that in a long time, like when my brother was murdered. I have been waiting and waiting and Melinda and we have slowly been running out of sanity.
I know it might not seem like much to some of you having your cheek bones, entire upper jaw, leg bone and muscles and skin removed. Having to pull hair out of your mouth just about every other day. Laying in bed so long your muscles atrophy & you can’t walk. Your son runs away from you cause your face scares the hell out of him. I have to go now but I want you to know that I’m really really happy this is finally showing an ending thanks to you and everything you’ve done.
I’ll post more real soon. I will have seven more months to heal before its all over but at least now I’ll just resemble a Felony Flats Tweaker and less monstrous. Now before you go saying “oh no you’re beautiful” just remember I deal with many different people and little kids daily and they uh, can be very honest.
I love you all and thank you too for the monetary donations they really help more than I anticipated. Keep it coming. Also we’ll likely need help with the the store- no one is there now, I had a pre-op at 10:30 my ride broke down on the way so reschedule for 2:30 today. Empty store on a busy day… no good. My operation is set for Monday and I can’t think anywhere near it. Phew. I’m terrified!
Apr/101
Meet My Meat
While I let my leg heal from having the fibula removed I can’t ride my bike, oh wait my bike was stolen while I lay dying in the ICU. Till I get a new bike or get up the nerve to ride Melinda’s I’m bussing it and getting an occasional ride in the hybrid.
I thought it might be interesting to see this map: Click if you want to see a very boring map And here is a very gross image showing the removal in case you wanted to know.
Yeah they just took out my Fucking Fibula and said “Its like a spare tire you wont even know it’s not there” I notice, I definitely notice! But they needed to rebuild my face so I could sell people Real Vegan Belts not the fall apart crap or the evil leather. I use conveyor belts the strongest belts in the world! Sorry about the gruesome picture but it is real life stuff.
I’m whacked out on drugs too. I don’t even drink alcohol and now here I am on three different opiates- Fuck! If you want to help you can donate at my home or I will be putting up a page eventually with things needed for the store and a story and things the sparkle. I love you my wonderful community which sustains my very life!
Apr/103
Vegan Bodybuilding & Fitness
Robert’s new book just came out and really I’m having a hard time putting it down. I was expecting some dry list of diet and workout routine… hell no! This book is so inspirational and gripping, a page turner and reference tool. What a totally unexpected combo I mean I’m a healthy fit guy but you’d never see me in the gym. I ride my bike and skateboard and that’s how I stay fit I find the gym just way too boring so I thought the book would be too- sorry Robert but like you I strive for transparency. (In the book)
Wow the personal areas of the book are evocative and seductive really pulls me in. I thought it would be short too but no way man what is it about 400 500 pages?! And a grip of photos too- I especially like the one with the HVB front door in it!
HVB Portland Postering Campaign in the Vegan Bodybuilding & Fitness book by Robert Cheeke
Robert talks about some real personal things in the book and in life in general and some people get uncomfortable with his ability to be transparent like I was at first but when you play it right back it can be a life changing experience. I never thought I’d be friends with a bodybuilder- me the skinny pale Goth all in black with gunmetal grey fingernails chillin’ with the Hulk… yeah right! Well now when I hear Robert’s name the first thing I think about is when I was in the hospital and I thought I was going to die and he sat there at the foot of my bed all day and into the night talking to me and whoever came into the room keeping all our heads up. He is just an incredible store of inspiration that I am immeasurably grateful for. Here we are when I first got the book:
Come on down to HELD Real Vegan Belts and get a limited signed first edition of his first published work- more books on the way! Really this book is meant for everyone. Inspiring more than any book I’ve read in the last ten years or so. I’m no bodybuilder and this book has me jumping out of the chair getting to work. Bye.
Now available at HVB World Headquarters
3033 NE Alberta Street
Portland, OR 97211
The Heart of Portland’s Vegan District
Apr/100
Innovation For Thee
Entire slew of fine characters and so idea springs forth out from the gaping hole. Soon more custom type stuff I’ll show you later. For now look how perfect this person fits the purse I made, wow. Sales are fine but I might need more volunteer help making them.
Speaking of help I finally made a “Donation” button on the m3house website after being told to do it enough. So please if you can give a couple bucks that’s how.
Extraordinary amount of pain right now I don’t know why. I’m healing still and my nerves are finding there way home and I’m on four kinds of opiates and still hurts like fuck! When people are talking about interesting things it goes away. I’ve implemented a few strategies that help but I can’t do them all the time. I’ve been working on several new cool belt designs and making the “Save Micah Perry” cause on Facebook work. They are saying its a Dental issue so I have to cough up $18,000.00 after Insurance. I’m a little spazzed come visit that always helps.
donate at M3house.org Thank you.
