This video was originally intended for inclusion with this post but for some odd coding reason didn't get in till today if you can't see it try refresh. 10/something/11.

While you're out enjoying the park on this lovely day I'm hiding out from any sort of social life. My wife is treating me to a pedicure but not the everyday type today we're having the "Caribbean" treatment at Dosha which to me means extra rad foot and leg massage. Last time we did this a YouTube video was an added result.

I'm pretty sure the store will survive year one in September so I went ahead and bought the website HELDVeganBelts.com I'm very excited about it. I'm confident combined with the new physical catalog due this fall HVB will not only survive but become a major  contribution to Animal Rights funding. I hope and that is my goal anyway. I don't know if we can make money with it but we can show videos with the projector we'll be getting soon. Yay! The same person is donating another flat panel monitor too so we can show videos in daylight. Submit movies and movie ideas and I'll put it to work. Wow that tickles and hurts my foot at the same time! Thank you Melinda.

After this we'll be heading into see my surgeon for an emergency visit and possible bit of surgery on my deformed face. I won't describe it here cause it is not much fun at all. Had to miss work yesterday cause the pain was just too much. The three of us rolled around on the couch-raft all day watching movies and eating vegan junk food. I have missed too much time with my son from the cancer so it was alright to spend the day like that.

We are on a new accounts drive to sell HVB so tell your friends about our fabulous new page where we will take wholesale orders. We also have amazing new belts available on the website so go buy one of those. These are the world's strongest and most sustainable belts ever any other belt is hereby proclaimed to be a fake. If you don't believe me take one for a test spin they are guaranteed forever! Okay time for leg massage see you later.

I went in for the final surgery and yes it was very scary but I have to be frank about this part. I believe everything works out for the absolute best not because I'm a lunatic but because when I was busy minoring in psychology I came across too much evidence which says that optimists live longer happier lives. It is sometimes very hard to do but I have been practicing for a long time. Another thing I consciously did was telling myself that the surgeons have all the power now and I can do nothing. I let go. Now I could relax and enjoy it.

As I was coming too in the post cutting stupor blurred by amazing drugging an air of confusion began to own me. Melinda was holding me and that was very comfortable but her face held another truth... "cadaver bone..." I could only grab a little bit at a time "...come back in a month..." so I guess the leg bone hadn't fused properly. They were able to cut my face up very well and remove a bunch the excess leg material and metal bits however they will have to go in again adding bone from a corpse. Great. Fabulous. I'll have to wait an additional 7-8 months for the surgery I was supposed to have yesterday or was it the day before? The drugs are wearing off and the pain is coming on and I've been in the bathtub close to four hours now.

A friend came to the house and is helping Melinda and I am fucking hurting ow. Shit this hurts but I am glad that it isn't worse. My brother was shot in the head by a cop at close range he was a little younger than I am now. I can't believe this is happening sometimes and sometimes I find out this is for the people around me as much as my experience. I turn on the jets in the tub and the noise takes the pain away only for a minute.

Thanks for watching the store you are incredibly amazing fabulous women and I dearly love you. The HELD store is for the critters and it is important that it holds certain ethical standards. My god this pain. I need the jets and bubbles. I wash my face every few minutes sorry. Please join the FB stuff and volunteer at the shop No FBI allowed.

I know it might not seem like much to some of you having your cheek bones, entire upper jaw, leg bone and muscles and skin removed. Having to pull hair out of your mouth just about every other day. Laying in bed so long your muscles atrophy & you can't walk. Your son runs away from you cause your face scares the hell out of him. I have to go now but I want you to know that I'm really really happy this is finally showing an ending thanks to you and everything you've done.

I'll post more real soon. I will have seven more months to heal before its all over but at least now I'll just resemble a Felony Flats Tweaker and less monstrous. Now before you go saying "oh no you're beautiful" just remember I deal with many different people and little kids daily and they uh, can be very honest.

I love you all and thank you too for the monetary donations they really help more than I anticipated. Keep it coming. Also we'll likely need help with the the store- no one is there now, I had a pre-op at 10:30 my ride broke down on the way so reschedule for 2:30 today. Empty store on a busy day... no good. My operation is set for Monday and I can't think anywhere near it. Phew. I'm terrified!